Hye everyone, so sorry for the long update , i have been struggle with my life being a celebrity, i can't hide it anymore , because people kept asking me allot of question, 'kenapa zenny da tak update FB ke? ...akak zenny bila nak buat concert lagi.? ..... and zenny what you have been doing?????' all these question were ask none stop..... the truth is gonna be reveal, i can't hide it anymore all these past that hold me back.... to be honest i really miss allot of things last time ...the friendships i used to have but it seems things changed unexpected.... all these long time i have been leaving with my past in my mind... and finally one day the person that i love told me that it wakes me up.... that's why i want to write these blog to let you guys know how i really felt and what had happened past several months. I'm so sorry i have to write the blog in English, to be honest i'm used that my blog is written English but i will try to campur.
It all started well after i won the Biggest Loser Asia 1 , as the at home champion , things changed after then ,my dream slowly going up, and it's near to what i have dream off long time ago since i was a kid. Joining one of the talent company, signing a contract, that time it was a dream come true , i was so happy everything seems to be okay:P I have to admit i worked my a** off to be who i really wana be , then i inspired allot of the friends and people out there who have the face the some problem that i have before. From fat to thin .....from a normal girl to a superstar , with the support with all the close one around me i finally made it through and to achieved what i wanted for so long. Finally i got a single 'Kau Kau ' is out! Talking about my life ...
I enjoy all the performances, all the shows that I've performed .... and i always remember one person told me that this "whenever we do, we must do it sincerely, and sing your heart out , treat the stage it's like yours , your the only one who owns the stage." Over the years, i have been doing all the things i told to do , and i always do it sincerely. Thank to that person really thought me allot until now. The truth of a celebrity no one would ever know until you go through it, and it's hard to ever admit sometime and be true to yourself.
In that world it's different and it's not always what you expect, it took me five years to be there , i mean to be at my level, i have to admit i'm not so famous, but it's one hard work. I have giving motivational talk telling people to go for your dream, do what you love , and never give up.
Along the way, when i have all the glamour days , i was able to share with someone that i was with before, but when one day the person stop and decided to leave , things started to changed allot than, the dream were thrown down, my heart was broken , all the dream that i worked it seems it doesn't turn out well, the hardest thing during that time is to face it everyday. During that time i was so down and everything was so bad. But than slowly get up i have gotten strong than before, than i manage to made it through the hard time of heart breaking moments... However, i manage to continue my dream, but this time things getting tougher, people we begin to love the song kau kau.... it seems like a motivation song...
In the journey, i have gone through where people said ' kenapa BM zenny tak bagus ' and somehow everything needs to be improve , i force myself to speak everyday ...but still people still said that to me... one day i even hate to speak in bahasa because of the chinese slang i have, until one point during shooting i cried for four hours speaking the same paragraph over over again until i get it but still people still not satisfied. Then i just do what i was told to read more BM newpaper out loud, write down all the question and answer what the media will ask me...it was one moments that i will never forget. :(
In between i have been going to concert performing , the concert getting bigger and bigger, i even performed infront of many famous celebrity such as Dato Siti, Stacy, Sixsenth and alots more..... it was one of the happiest thing that happened to me. one of the proudest moment and my dream came true.
When everything seems to be fine , until one day in one of the concert i was doing the opening before i even sing, the audiences were screaming 'booo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! boleh belah!!!!!!!!!!! Tak kenal la!!!!!!!!!!That time was the worst time of my life :) I cried ....
Eventhough all these happened but what i know in me myself i will never give up !!!!!!!!!! Like i always said and encourage others!!!!!!!!!!!! My journey is a story , story i can tell to others ...and maybe in the future atleast i can tell my grandchildren all these story :P
I'm opening a business Franchise soon , in Penang Precinct 10 , the name of the business is call Sweet hut :) It's a dessert shop :) to all come support me and try it :P for more info just visit
http://www.sweethuts.com/ or LIKE and SHARE our fan page SWET HUT PENANG
https://www.facebook.com/SweetHutPenang?fref=ts :)
Just Don't give up , i know i can do it :)
What i have learned throughout the years, being plussize is not an issue but being unhealthy is an issue, i'm big but i can workout like normal person do , Don't challenge me hahaha ... What i want to said is most importantly, being happy and healthy and one more most important is ' SelfConfident' you got to be Confident :) this reminds me of a song by Demi Lovato - Confident .
